Uncovering

adimari's album "traces in spaces"

Imagine yourself sitting behind a desk with a lot of ideas running through your head.  They turn to a hazy wave of noise as soon as your phone alerts.  A text message.  "Following up the price quotation for the brochure..."  You're tapping you pen and waiting for 4 hours and still it hasn't arrived.  This price quotation that's supposed to tell you of your future ability to seal the deal by 2012.  On the other side of your brain you're thinking about that conversation you had with your boss about a disgruntled officemate who doesn't believe in your capability to lead the group because she thinks she knows better.  The phone rings, "Ma'am please help me follow up the costing department because they're taking a bit of time." Your account officer says in desperation.  

Your fingers start to feel paralyzed against the keyboard and your back starts to feel strained because of shifting and shuffling restlessly on your office chair.  You haven't eaten lunch and your throat starts to feel dry.  You're thinking about the press run of a book you're printing for the first time and how the proofreader missed out a very important detail that cost a huge a mount of waste because the error was spotted after everything has been printed.

The emails pour in and your requests for additional computers have been approved.  You're thinking about the limited space and how long it will take for decisions to be made so that you can get moving with the expansion project.  

It never ends.  It's like a cycle of events that loop endlessly like a broken record.  

This is how my life has been for the past 3 months.  But if I would characterize my life a little bit better, it's a constricted flow of creativity.  Always caged in and aching to be expressed.  In my resourcefulness I try to find ways of living with the limitations of the circumstances that threaten the full expression of creative potential.  I'm sure I'm not the only one out there who feels this way.  

This page will hopefully chronicle these moments and in careful observation hopefully find answers to how one can live through these limitations and still find the fulfillment of being able to create and make a difference every moment.